God Is There

One of my favorite scriptures in the Bible is, Isaiah 62:3, "You shall be a crown of beauty in the hand of the Lord, and a royal diadem in the hand of your God."

This scripture holds a lot of meaning in my life. It describes the love that God has for me, and how He thinks I'm beautiful and worthy.

For a few days it's been on my heart to share with you part of my story and testimony. When I was fourteen I started to struggle with my body image. Despite the fact that I was a healthy and beautiful teenager, I felt fat and ugly. Those ideas that the devil was placing into my mind led me down a road of destruction. I then started to stop eating every other day or so, and eventually it turned into me starving myself days at a time. Sadly it became a habit, and I became addicted to the empty feeling that anorexia gave to me. I suffered from anorexia nervosa for six months. It was a long and painful period of time that included depression, suicidal thoughts, and more. I felt empty and worthless, and I hated myself.

I then attended a local church camp the following summer. The last church service of the week the preacher asked the group of campers if any of us had anything holding us back from the presence of God. He then told us that if we wanted to get rid of the chains that were bounding us and tearing us away from Christ, for us to come up to the front. As I walked to the front of the building I gave my eating disorder over to God, and I could feel the weight of this disorder lift from my shoulders. The following morning I ate breakfast, and even though to some people that's not a big deal, I rejoiced. It took me a while after that night at camp to fully be able to eat three meals a day, it was a learning process but over the course of time God helped me reach that point.

To this day I still struggle with my eating habits, I may eat three meals one day and the next I may only eat one or two but I know that God is with me. He reminds me every day of the reason why I gave my eating disorder over to him all those years ago at that camp service, because I wanted to be free from that disorder. It's not God who allows me to struggle, it's the devil because he knows that it's something I struggle with more than anything else.

Message to my readers:

We all have a story to share, and a testimony of what God has done in our lives. What I have shared with you today is only part of mine, but I felt in my heart that it was the part I needed to share at this moment. We will each have our ups and downs in life, and we will each have our doubts and fears but God is there. It does NOT matter the time or hour, God is there and He loves all of us so much. That's why He sent his son to die on the cross for our sins. Whatever you are dealing with today, give it to God and let Him take care of it. Let Him show you all of the wonderful things He can do for you, and remember that He has a plan for your life. Never doubt what God can do, because what is impossible with man is possible with God!